January 3, 2016
This is being posted a day late because of being zoned out and really stressed out by family drama yesterday. The prompts don't really seem day-specific anyway, so I'll just write yesterday's entry and today's entry on the same day and try not to think about it too much. Also, it's past 12AM, and I'm exhausted, so I might be a bit lazy with it. I need to lower my expectations of myself.Personal Prompt: Congratulations! You just won an award! Pick an award, and write an acceptance speech.
Award: Best All-Around Creator of the Year.
What?! I honestly never thought I would make it this far--or get even a fraction of the way there. From my perspective, I got lucky. This award belongs entirely to someone else. After all, many people work hard to make it this far and never get recognized. I guess, if I'm going to be this lucky, might as well make good use of it.
I've always been drawn to the arts since I was a child. But as an extremely self-conscious kid (and later, adult), I doubted myself and gave up. Looking at the facts, or at least the facts I saw, everything I created--the few things I actually followed through with--were trash. I saw myself as inferior to everyone I met at basically everything, so why keep trying if better people who work at it for even longer aren't recognized?
But, somehow, I got here. And I can still admit that some--or many--of the things I've created are trash. I'm not perfect, yet I somehow made it here. I don't know what motivated me to keep going, but because of that, I improved. I improved a lot and ended up here. Now you may be thinking, "You only thought your work was trash. Everything I have created is absolute 100% bagged trash." I would've thought the same thing if someone was saying this unbelievably-positive and fakey stuff to me. So, if you ever need to, look at some of the older stuff I created. Look at my progress. It'll motivate you much more than any finished product, no matter how beautiful and inspiring it is.Creative Prompt: Describe your dream house. (Where is it located? Who lives there with you? How is it decorated?)
This is a bit difficult because my dream house could change day by day, and it's not something I really think about anymore. I've always loved the charm in little houses by the beach/forest or near downtown city areas... basically anything with an antique or magically isolated look. I would live there with woofelss
of course, and I would bring my three cats along if possible. I would love it if the house was decently spaced from other houses but still was close to a downtown beautiful shopping area. The house itself would be small, possibly colorful on the outside, and have lots of windows with sunlight coming in. Most of the house would be open, and both the bedroom and dining/breakfast area would be surrounded by windows, which would show off a beautiful landscape (not sure which kind yet). There would also be colorful lights hung everywhere, and much of the house would have an airy and flowy work. The furniture would be a nice mix of modern and antique, and there would be a room dedicated to creating things. That pretty much sums it up.