January's Mighty Month Challenge - Day 4

[cathugger]

January 5, 2017

It's about 9PM now, and I was really hoping to get this written earlier. I've already had a hard time keeping up with these, which is a bit discouraging because I'm assuming it'll get harder with time. Maybe not, though. The past few days have been pretty dramatic where I live, so maybe it'll just get easier when that lightens up. Right now, it's hard to get myself to do anything that doesn't instantly make me feel a little better. I usually have problems getting myself to start writing, and it usually ends up being stressful until I move past that point. So writing isn't helpful in this situation... at least not right away.

Personal Prompt: Name five things you are proud of and five things you are not so proud of.

Five things I'm proud of:

1. Learning to open up and be honest
2. Getting good grades in my classes
3. Completing and sticking to DBT class
4. Learning useful things about myself and my illnesses
5. Surviving

Five things I'm not proud of: 

1. Being manipulative
2. Being controlling
3. Getting my hopes up about people
4. Harmful coping methods
5. Not being there for my dog or cats more in the past

Creative Prompt: Plan your dream vacation. (Where are you going? Who is coming with? What are you doing?)

Honestly, I haven't come up with a single dream vacation. There are lots of places that I would love to visit just for the new experience. Thinking of it that way, I don't know what vacation to somewhere new wouldn't be a dream vacation. I guess the more new/exciting the better, though. I'll try to come up with an image.

First, I need to pick a place. I'm not going to dwell on it too much because picking somewhere to go could take a long time. So I guess I'll pick... Hawaii? I don't know much about the place, but its name keeps coming up in conversations. I'd love to go there at least once in my lifetime, and it seems to have the type of environment I like.

Of course, I'd bring woofelss along, and I think we'd just sort of try everything out: famous places, local restaurants, stores, etc. And of course, it'd be cool to check all the different environments out and save time to relax in a nice hotel. It's hard to think of specifics because I don't know much about Hawaii. But because of that, I'd be happy with almost anything!